- Eng. - Escapism

Do you know these moments, these events, these situations you just want to be over or even better just escape? I know it. And I know I can’t escape, at least not yet. But in the end, would it be better if I were able to escape? Probably not.

Depending on the situation, I sometimes feel it was good that I did it. There is one thing I wish from life, I don’t want to ask myself on my deathbed: “What would have happened if I did/did not do this?” I don’t want to. I don’t. Not regretting things. Someone once told me: “Don’t think, just do it.” How does this connect to Escapism? Well, the situations I wanted to escape from were mostly things I was afraid to do or nervous about. That’s probably because I think too much. I literally overthink everything. EVERYTHING.
My first date is an example. I was happy about it until like three days before. I did not want to go. I was nervous. I am nervous. But in the end, I know I would regret it if I would not take this chance. So I will go. Could I escape? Of course, I am a free human being, I do what I want (as long as my parents approve

). Do I want to escape? Probably, yes. Why am I still planning to go? Thinking only about the short term, will never bring you anywhere in life. So I am thinking long term here.
I DON'T WANT TO REGRET. You are probably asking yourself if I have ever done something stupid, something I should be regretting. And I can tell you, hell yes, I have, but I am not regretting it. Am I a mean, evil human? Probably not. Then why don't I regret it? Well from every mistake I do, I learn. I am thankful for the things I've done wrong, because every time I make a mistake I gain some knowledge out of it. Of course I could still regret it but whats the point? It happend, you can't change it. You will have to live with it and eventually at some point you will even die with it. So why regretting? Accept it. You did it, learn from it, improve, make another mistake, repeat procedure.
How does this relate to Escapism? If you always try to escape, you won't do mistakes, you won't learn. If you escape once, you will have to escape again and again and again. Why? Its obvious, you weren't able to deal with the situation. You escaped, but you won't be able to deal with the same or a similar thing when it comes up again (belive me here, it will). Don't take me wrong here, its not easy to confront a maybe uncomfortable situation. But do you really want to take the easy path? Where is the adventure? Where is the adrenaline, just right before you meet your date? Where is the happiness when you finally talked with that person, you always had problems with and ressolved it? Where would be life without awkward, uncomfortable situation? Each one of us got a chance. If you don't escape, if you are fearless, you will die. If you will always escape, you will die, too. Its your chance, its your choice what you make of it. I, I will go to the date. What about you? - Meaningless